My brain has to decided to obsess over Pullip things, because why the fuck not. Mostly its obsessing over this one used Byul, which is funny, because, I um. Hate Byul. So, so fug. But in this case, it would be for the Pluto family I secretly fantasize about in a little closed room in my head.

See, I love my Taeyang Pluto. So, so much. I love Taeyang in general, but the Steampunk Eclispe Pluto is just epically gorgeous, and…ugh. I hate him, honestly, he torments me. I try not to look at him too much, because then I want to just stare at the pretty. He has made me fall in love with two other Pullip dolls, that I only realized after the fact ACTUALLY KIND OF LOOK LIKE HIM, DAMMIT, PLUTO.

This did not help with Pluto Family Fantasies, as you may imagine.

There are, of course, the other dolls in his line, but…eh? They’re fine. I wouldn’t mind some of their stuff, but I’m not really moved to have them. The same for the other steampunk line, really; although in both cases, I actually rather like the Dals (Ra Muw and Icarus). Just…not quite enough, I guess? Part of the problem is that Dal reads rather sulky, and that’s not my thing. It makes it hard for me to connect enough to actually buy one. She is really cute, though, unlike the aforementioned Byul. Like, even people who like Byul admit she’s an acquired taste and that her sculpt is really unphotogenic. Which is being kind, in my opinion, but is also probably part of why I’m all, “YES HER WE SHOULD DO THIS GOOD GO.”

Because when I’m depressed I simultaneously really want a project, to distract me and be creative, and also really want to avoid any projects, because if/when something goes wrong, it will seem that much bigger and more wrong, and I will be that much less able to handle it. But! Doing minor alterations on Pullips is pretty easy, and can offer really striking results. And if I already hate the Before, then the After is surely that much more likely to please, yes?

Of course its all pretty moot, as I don’t have $70, and by the time I do (if I do), she will probably already have sold, but that does nothing to keep my brain from obsessing and dreaming and plotting.

Well. At least its better than crying.