Apparently I have lost my fool mind. I just bid on something that I do not have the money for, and do not, y’know, actually need. (To be fair, who the fuck goes on eBay for things they need? It is a candyland of WAAAAAAANT, keep your need to your local stores.)

I actually do have most of the money for it, its not that far over. But there were also a couple little, cheapo things I had previously bid on, so its kind of a wash. Unless I get outbid in the next 16 hours, it all comes to a pile of things I have insufficient funds for.

….only half of me wants to be outbid. The rest of me is flailing that its awesome and such a great price, and that this is what credit cards are FOR! This is technically true, but…I really need to be outbid. For my own emotional health if nothing else; guilt has been known to send me into a depressive episode, and I’ve actually been doing pretty good lately.

AAAUUUGGGHHHH. Someone, outbid me! I want it, I do, but oh my god, someone please outbid me. *headdesk*